Have Been Unavoidably Detained By The World

Expect Me When You See Me

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January 15
Oh, I have nothing to say today. I don't even have to energy to go back through my giant pile of half-finished posts to pick on out and finish it before posting. You know those days you have so many things you have to do that you just sort of stare at the list and then it's six hours later and nothing has been done?

Welcome to my life.

Hopefully I'll be able to pull something together for tomorrow. I have to start drafting my response for the 17th, but after that I have days and days of nothing but my own inspiration.

You know what, I'll take this opportunity to say something about fandom, actually. Sometimes I disappear for a while, sometime I take a long time to respond to a comment, or take a long time to comment on my flist or fics. And a lot of that is because it's sometimes just Too Much. If fandom, the place I go to be happy (by and large) becomes a burden on top of other burdens, it's the first thing I walk away from for a bit. Lots of reasons for that, but I think an important one is this: I DO NOT want fandom ruined for me. If something in fandom makes me really unhappy, I'll just avoid it for a while, and maybe come back and examine it when I can establish some space. That goes for things I enjoy but just don't feel up to handling as well.

I know I've been enormously lucky in my fandom life. I've been reading fandom!wank for years, and I know it's just sheer dumb luck that I don't get enmeshed in some of the crazy. I also like to think that I've managed to meet some really wonderful, awesome people in fandom, and no one has ever shamed or guilted me for taking time off, even though I know I've left conversations hanging.

Another essay about fandom with no ending or real thesis! Oh well, you guys are wonderful and you aren't going to yell at me if you don't like it.

(This entry is also posted on Feel free to comment on either site. Although my dreamwidth background has space! Spaaaace!)

Welcome to your life. There's no turning back!

I guess we're lucky that sometimes there's Too Much fandom and not Too Little. Those of us with the willpower to walk away when we need to, that is.

I sometimes hate missing stuff, because the internet moves about 5x normal human speed. But I've come to really appreciate my ability to walk away and just say "nope, I'll deal with it later."

Yeah, same. If by "walk away" you mean "distracted by something else".


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